I didn't plan that I fall in love with him

Some people might think that I plan to fell in love with him. Actually, I didn't. Before I even saw glimpse of him, I decided that I will never fell in love again.

Then this "thing" started. (Some might know what I'm ref to.) First I thought that I'll handle it. If I decide that I hate every person from the Atlantic, I'll survive from the "thing" with out any feelings.
Then I saw the first signs those feelings in me. I try ed, trust me, I really did, to get out of that "Thing". One person didn't let me quit. (Spoken test is SO hard to stupid Finns.)

Then I knew that won't work so I try ed even harder. I thought that if I provoke him enough, he'll get so angry at me that he'll throw me out from there. Ques, did it work? No-oo! Of course it didn't.

But I saw him very angry once. And that was quite scary, and then I start to afraid that I have succeed. Now he will throw me out. (I wanted that and then I was scared for that.)

How many feelings can you really feel in same time? I love him more that anyone in this earth but I'm scare his anger very much. I don't know but I think that he is very hard to provoke in the way that he'll get angry. But when he does, how long it will take that he'll be appeased? Year, 10 years, eternity? Or just few...something? Or better yet, what it will take to appease him?

I'm so sorry that I have been the pain in you behind. I truly love you.

New York New York.... MY ESCAPING

Sang Frank Sinatra.

Weird feeling came all the sudden. I was watching New York from the Google Earth and from the maps live.com

BUILDING WHAT IS MISSING- STILL IS

In those pictures wasn't that one radioactive building, which where there then. I don't have any pictures about that building because all those pictures where destroyed while I was in there. And I remembered right. It was yellow and it was very near to the Brooklyn bridge. I had to back to the ARC to find the picture. And in one book, it was in it. So, I'm not crazy. I remembered. That building was kind of land mark for me. I played with the girl in the play ground what was next to that old hospital. (Two hours and we got headache.)

Today they have pull down that building and they have already build up two apartment houses. To the same place where that hospital was.

I really miss New York (Witch is nice place to visit, awful place to live.) The island where I lived, the history of it isn't that beautiful that people believe. About 100 years ago it was full of two kind of people. Lunatics and prisoner's. (Did any one bother to tell me? Even those who found out which island I lived? NO, why would they?)

So I lived in lunatic prison island. (Roosevelt island) 14 years ago.

MY ESCAPE FROM THE FAMILY I WORK FOR

When I had to leave from there, that was like "American" movie. Because the family I was working for, first they wanted me to end my relationship to one man and then they sack me. (My first and only well mannered boyfriend was a American.He was about 6-7 years older but it really worked. Even today, he don't know why I had to ended it.) After that they didn't want to leave (by myself to the JFK) so, they said. But I couldn't go any where.

Well my "aunt" came to rescue me with her husband. I got one call from them that they are coming to get me after one hour. (Be ready or not) And I told that to that family. "My aunt is coming to get 11 P.M.

I got very good instruction's not to tell the family where I was going. Well 11 P.M. the guard from the basement called to us and told that there is two women, who came for me.

We got my things in 10 minutes and they literally threw my things in the van and we then we left to New Jersey in West Orange village. (lovely little village, if I may say so.)

After my escape. My mother got several phone calls from New York from this family. They always asked the same question: "Am I at home?" My mother answered the same way:"Who's asking?" And then they always hang up the phone. When my mother got enough, she told to this caller that if she calls again, she will report from her to the Finnish Embassy, to the Ministry for Foreign Affairs of Finland. Those phone calls stopped.

Now it's 14 years when I was last time in New York. Maybe I will go there, some day. Next summer ? I don't know. But when I do. First I go all those place's I used to go and then I go see the new place's where I haven't been.

NEW JEWELRY - information about them

Finally I have time to make more jewelry. And I have already name them. If you think that those name aren't good, you can tell me better names. I hope you do!

Jewelry's are:

Yellow flower. In two sizes: one is necklace and other is bracelet.

There is also frozen blue flower in necklace and bracelet.

And Sea necklace and bracelet.

Then there is green summer. Also in two sizes. (Necklace and bracelet.)

And "Ocean" blue necklace, bracelet and earrings.

Then there is raspberry necklace.

Acorn is the first time when I have put nature in my jewelry.

What you think?

NEW JEWELRY

The nun thing - I don't understand that. I love him too much to do something that sick!!

I can't understand how somebody wants live without husband and join in convent.
That is something want is beyond my reason.

Personally, I can't understand that kind of life. I want to learn so much from my (If I get married) husband regardless all the horror stories I have heard about S - E - X.

I want to share everything with him. Same thing is with big decision's. It's always better when (If that's possible) have a mans opinion in those. Men see thing differently, with their reason and their motions aren't in the way in big decision's.

I have to admit that that kind of life living without a husband and living a life inside the walls, it's definitely not for me. I see that man (in marriage the husband) is the one who is leading things. NOT the kitchen, it's my kingdom =) I rule there. It's fine by me if man wants to rule anywhere else.

Don't tell any one but in this matter I'm the narrow minded. The nun thing. I think it's some kind twisted that women lives behind the walls and one man rules them all. It's like the henhouse with the rooster.

I love the certain man too much. I couldn't abandon and violate the love I have to him. It's like I would be selfish and I wouldn't think about him at all. He deserve the best. Of course he decide what he wants because he knows best. No one else.

Honestly I rather get married and go through the first time and learn enjoy everything that I'm doing with my husband. And love that life when I can make his life even better, if that's possible. (And NO, I'm not going to complain the housework.) That convent life is from my point of view same thing that having a cancer and try to survive from that without medicine.

The convent life is from my point of view like trying to get away the life it self.

I want to learn everything about the S... and making the mans life even better. My place is some day beside my husband what ever comes. There my loyalties lie. With him! And I know that that life (being a wife) is for me because now I have found out that he really can rule me. Lucky me! Honestly, I am lucky. I love him so much. Even more if that's possible.

He don't know this but when I say that I love him. It makes me more shy than I'm usually. And of course I'm afraid that he will stab my heart and kill all the love I have for him. Some how I believe that he isn't going t o stab me. He isn't nothing like that. If I'm right he really is nice, sweet and very loving person, although he looks kind of scary sometimes. Don't we all?

United States of America- work for them, are they going to let me or not?

That is more like Hamlet question: "To be or not to be?"

I have applied from U.S. Embassy that I can work for them and work in Embassy.

Some of you might think that I have turn my back on all my values but it's nothing like that.

They don't have old data about me and they see me as a person not a student forever. And best of all, they have so great values. They don't tell me that I don't have right to be a person, teacher etc. because I study in my free time, after work. They really respect us.

It's same thing that I would call every person who are from U.S.A as a "American". Or calling a person "African- American", etc. It's same thing when he calls me a student! Labeling people in certain categories. And he told that He hates that kind of behavior!! What a bulls...! I hate lying!!!

I'll see soon do they let me work for them or not. I hope they do. It's chance what comes once in life time. Best of all, in that work I don't have to move in U.S.A, I can work from my home country.

And if I can work in there, it will the same time when I has to start to learn how to smile. American smile is very good example how to smile. I have had a chance to smile in 4 years, so it will take time to learn how to do that.

And I have great English spoken skills, no thanks to my "English teachers". One of them still believe that I was his student. I haven't told him that he wasn't my teacher. I try to many times get out of that stu... course. But NO! It was waste of time. 3 hour per week and I was so stupid that I let my friends talk me into that. They wanted me to stay in that course.

And I believe that the teacher assume that I'm so stupid that I can't take the spoken test without being in that course.

To me that course was just interpreter to the teacher. Because of that course, I had to use my Christmas vocation to my research and I had to write it in Christmas time.

But if U.S.A don't take me to work for them, then I have already other work place.

Believe or not but my boss in a nun.

Yes, my boss is A NUN. But I'm the teacher who leads all learning activities. I have 44 children's, I lead the preschool and the children's activity for 3 to 5 years old children.

All the pedagogical activity is in my responsibility.

And what is the best part: I have 10 weeks vocation in the summer, so I have paid vocation in the winter (so called winter vocation), I have paid vocation at the Christmas time and it's getting even better I can go to school, I can go to the hospital treatments ect. They don't mind and still I'm a person.

GREAT TIMING IS EVERYTHING

It was amazing in the gym today!

Because it opens just 14.45 in Tuesday (and Thursdays in summer) all women goes there just when it opens. Today I went there 3 p.m. and 90 % people in there were women. All those who wants to be in good or in great shape. Although there were few men who where there just looking women a...behinds but when I didn't "hear" and I didn't see anything" (I was reading harry Potter) I was left alone.

And when I get my facial thing done I can go back to the same self-defence "technique" I had before. I think that he don't help me anymore or he will never stand up for me again. So I need something to defend my self. I'm of my own now! It was so much normal and better to put my faith in him! He hates me, despise me if I'm honest.

In November it's going to be hard and very emotional, and then I really need some one to rely on. I have every Monday starting in 29.10 and ending in 3.12 appointment in the hospital. That's the very end of this treatment. Yes I know, he won't be there. But who can blame him? I can't! I hope...I wish...never mind.

The hospital is so different environment that it will bring up different emotions to all of us. I fear it first time that place that I honestly walked out of there and took my breath and went back. In these 4 years I have defeated my fear.

Can I defeat my fear to this man? (He hates and despite me at the moment) He is only man who can rule me. I know how that sounds but yes, he can rule. And that's what I desire and fear. He can rule in good why, the right way, in way that he's happy in his life. (If he's happy, so am I). But he can rule the bad way, in the way that can end me.

UNBELIEVABLE NEIGHBOURS!!! SICK PEOPLE!!!

This is SICK!!

I hope that you where here to see what happened when my brother came to visit me! Every third window where someone to see arrogantly inside my window!!

It was like THE event of the week!! Girl's brother from the opposite building is visiting her!!!

What is wrong with this people? Don't they have TV? Don't they have relatives?

One man was in his window and he was watching to my window all through my brothers visit. When my brother left, he stop watching. What h* is his problem?

He really need a hobby!! Like...anything! For example he could throw 1000 toothpicks at the kitchen floor and pick them up and start again!

New HArry Potter movie...WAU!!! and other movies!

I'm ultimate fan of J.K. Rowling's books of Harry Potter. So of course I have to go see every movie and buy them when they are in DVD.

Today I went to see the latest Harry Potter movie. It's was excellent, great, worth to see.

I have been so long a fan of Jason Isaacs. He is absolutely great actor. I have to admit, in this movie he wasn't that great what he used to be as in "Lucuis Malfoy". Jason Isaacs is so good actor. He can be the "nice person" and the "bad" person.

I don't care about the...what is that Katie Holmes husband...Tom Cruise or that man who was in "ER"...He's in Ocean 12 too...well I don't remember.

Any way, I like those actor who can act. Not those who are good looking or they are "in" at the time. Actually I have never been those girls who love or like someone or some actor because they are "in" or they have good looks. When I was young, I thought that if I want to blend in, I has to put some poster in my wall. So I did. But if you would see my home now, you can't say what I like or not.
For example the music: I like so many different kind of music that you can't tell what is my favorite. I have Celine Dion (helps me to sing and pronounce words right after every surgery) but I have also Gun n' Roses (it's in tape), I have Nightwish CD's (when Tarja Turunen was singing at the band) etc.

Or about movies: well, there you can say that I like Jason Isaacs and Scottish history. I have few (a lot) DVD's that I have buy because I like the story. (Merlin, Cry-Baby, Jurassic Park etc.) But And the one thing what we can't forget. (Forgetting that is a crime against humanity.)

I have read almost every book that I could find, see all movies about it and I know that history better than anyone that I know. It's about the crimes what the Nazi's did to Jewish nation. I am not a Nazi! I'm against that all the way. My uncle thought that "Arbeit macht frei" was a great joke. That was about 10 years ago. Last time I met him was 2 months ago, in my grand ma's funeral.

Comparing those "looks" to someone else, they haven't seen what is good looking. That's my opinion, everyone has right their own.

I don't see that Harry Potter would be witch craft! It's fairytale.

I have got in the that conversation. My last argument was and still is that those people who has born with lot of money, they are usually those who don't like any other person to success, especially when the person is from poor background. They really hope that the person from poor background would stay there.

Fairy tales don't divide between in good, nice fairy tale and witch craft.

It's same thing with books. I have LOT of different books, different writers. Cornwell, Gerritsen, Hayden etc., cooking books (one is a pearl. It's cooking book from the chef who lived in Ludvig XV's time. He was the king's chef. Books is written in 1767 in France. Book isn't the original book, it's translated. The useful counts or the story. Not the cover!!

Same thing is the man That I fall in love. Cover is great but that don't matter. What's matter is what is inside of him. (Normal organ's, perhaps) No seriously, what he's like, how he behave, how he see people, how he act with people, how he treat different people etc. That counts!! A lot!!

FALL IN LOVE- man’s expectation’s are… AND BROKEN HEART'S

FALL IN LOVE

I have always think what man really wants when and if he finds out that I fall in love with him.

Should I behave like that woman in Scarlet? Lean to him all my weight from the beginning, be helpless all the time with doors, with jars, with everything. That's called acting in this part of the world. It's dishonest.

Maybe that's normal in somewhere or to someone but it's not me. Why should I behave like brainless chicken? Men expect us, women, treat them like intellectual beings, why they can't treat us the same? Don't they get distressing and anxious if a woman behave like that towards them? It's like man should have his own life and his own hobby's and he should be there 24-7 for a woman's needs. That's SICK! No any offence.

But if I don't behave like that, man usually get his own conclusions and normally it's the wrong one. (Those kind of men are those who don't know what is like to be hurt in love. They don't understand.)

When I feel safe enough with the man, I can behave like that but not too much. Not the way that it isn't me. There is time and place to that. And it don't undermine mans masculinity and his leadership.

BROKEN HEART'S understand each other

Only people who has been hurt in love can truly understand each other. I have proven this. Men who don't know what is like to brake you heart in love, they never (trust me NEVER) understand how to treat broken heart. They never understood.

But man who has broke his heart in love can understand. Because he don't do those things what he went trough to other person. He avoid those things just because he knows what it's feels like, when you are treated wrong. And he knows that the woman never do that because she broke her heart.

I have broke my heart so many times that I know that next time can be the last time. Next strike can be the last one. That strike, emotionally, will kill me in emotionally. You can't see that. I can walk, talk, laugh, be friendly but inside my I'm dying. Not any kind of disease. That many times I have hurt in love.

Now I'm very very careful. So careful that the man believes that I played with his feelings. I didn't, honey, I'm just afraid that you hurt me. I can't fix the past. But I can make better future.

Nosy neighbors, irritating people and prenuptial agreement. Good reading material!!

NOSY NEIGHBORS

You know those people who are so nosy that they do anything to find out everything about their neighbors?

Well I have those. Isn't it nice? Most of them lives opposite of my apartment building.

When I'm washing the windows, they are at their own window to watch am I going to jump! When I'm making dinner, lunch, making coffee etc. They are at their window or/and a balcony trying to see how I make it and do I wash my dishes or not etc.

Their TV must be in pieces or they don't have newspapers, computer, DVD-player or Video- player.

I believe that next step to them is that they start to take notes. They try to see what I add to my food and take notes about the ingredients.

It's also possible that they haven't seen a person who can cook. They has to be those who buy TV-dinners from the store. They eat only convenience foods. That's not good food. Good food is that you know what's in it.

IRRITATING PEOPLE

That reminds me about one person who told us (me and my friends, then we were students. Now we are not students anymore.) that he knows what is good meat and what is not. That was the only time when I got so mad that he hasn't talk about "good meat" anymore. Not even when he was doing his practical training in the preschool where I was a teacher.

He hasn't even work in the store. If the product has a label Stockmann, he'll buy it. So in that case you can sell him anything and he'll buy it. Stupid little boy! He didn't knew that I have worked in the grocery store 2 years. I KNOW what is good meat and what isn't. Thanks to couple expert who's expertise is meat. After that he didn't tell me what is good and what id bad food.

It's funny that a boy tells me what is good food and good meat. He hasn't cook food that long. I was 10 years old when I cooked first time. So now I have cooked over 22 years. He was quite annoying. And when he realized that he couldn't make me look silly, he tried to destroy my reputation at my workplace (preschool)

Well that went south so he find new person to pick on. And this person couldn't defend him self because first he didn't know that. It was too bad for that boy that my loyalties lye's elsewhere.

Although that was stupid because when they (my colleague and this boy) realized that I'm not loyal to them and their bull*...bad talks, they turn against me. In the long run, I had to resign from my work because that turn to work place bullying.

Well, don't worry. I cope.

PRENUPTIAL AGREEMENT

The difference of me and my colleague is that that I really know people. The people that she believes to know. She told me over and over again that she knows this and this person, this and this actor, actress etc. We call people like her "nousukas". To that word don't have a work in English language. It a person who lives with her husband money without doing anything. (her husband does the cooking, cleaning, laundry etc.) That kind of person hasn't money of her self and if she wouldn't marry that man, she can't keep her lifestyle.

It's odd that most of people in my country hasn't heard prenuptial agreement! I won't one! That's for sure! And people who move here from other country's, they forget that that kind of paper really exist. It does, even in here middle of nowhere!

How hard that can be? Business is business and marriage is marriage! I know this, I'm a daughter of a business man. Don't never mix these. If you love him/her, you'll sign. You don't, then you don't. Easy, isn't it?
Prenuptial agreement is just time way keep your property/money/assets safe. Even BEFORE marriage, during the time and some cases after marriage. When this "little" is signed, then you can focus that marriage part.

Easy? Yes. Can't be easier.

Log house, WHAT WAS I THINKING - I wasn't

Few years ago I wanted to build a log house. What was I thinking??? Now I have had time to think about that and Oh my Lord, I has to have some kind of mental malfunction.

It's like living in barn! Then you look around and all the time you think that what is missing? Finally you get it. The animals and the hay!

Taking care of the log house is difficult. If you paint it with wrong kind of paint, it will decompose around you. And soon you don't have a home! Who wants that?? I don't!

The surroundings don't make the home, home is where you feel.

Do I what live in barn? No I don't. Luckily the mental malfunction was temporary and now I know that I don't want that.

Volume 2: What HE should be like?

Now this get hard or difficult. The "frames" isn't everything. He has have something between his ears!

In most cases men are strong and rugged looking but they don't have anything between the ears. They know everything about mirrors, bodybuilding and football and fighting with fists. They don't know about how to be nice, safe, good mannered and they are not definitely wise, intelligent etc.

Other group are opposite of those. They are intelligent but they so slim, weak and 100% cases they are nerds, geeks; men who see a glimpse of woman in bra, they do this: "Bra...hih hih..." Like young girls, who can't believe that some day, they will wear those proudly. Usually those man, i call them boys, live in with their mother until they are 30 plus something, and if they do some housework, it's a miracle.

That's why it's always better when man is strong, rugged and stupid than slim and wise.

But girls, let me tell you this. In some very very rare cases there are man who are very strong (it's great quality in man and I don't mean just physically), rugged and extremely intelligent. That kind of man really is worthy of the nicest treatment. And never offend him because he will get so angry at you that you can't find right means to make him happy again. Those kind of man can be angry very very long.

And his anger is something that you should fear so much that you have to flee for it, run away from his anger. His anger is something that it's healthy to avoid. His anger is scary.

Even when you love him more than anyone ever.

What HE should be like?

This is kind of funny. We have this inquiry in our radio: "Should man be athletic or not?"

Well, YES! Not the bodybuilder kind but he has to look like a man.

Men in my country are very thin and weak. And I don't like those kid of men at all. Because I'm slim, the man can't be. He has to so much bigger that I can hide behind him. If he's strong or rugged looking. He has to be strong minded too. Only then the relationship can be in the right balance.

And I have learned that weak minded men can't cope with me. Just because things I has to go trough, the operation's in the hospital, all other things what comes from that, it really takes much from me but it will take much from the man. 99% of people hate hospital's; me too; but I have to go there. I has to go trough very exhausting and hard treatments. Man who wants to stay beside me, he has be strong minded and he can't pity me. In this time my treatment is almost done. About 95 % has already done.

I have seen so many of my "friends" come and go because of this. Nobody at this far hasn't stay beside me. And that make me stronger and now I choose better my friends and I don't tell about his to anyone. Most of my friends knows that I go in operations but they don't know why or what my doctors are doing. This is my little secret or big secret. In the end it's so horrible that people can't face it like it would be part of any one's life. (Well it's part of mine.)

And think, in same time I do my Master's degree, my Master's research and my mathematical learning environment research, and I work 8 hour/day. And still I have time to my friend and much more. It's all about organize zing and prioritizing. What is important to me, I'll always find time, always. Like anyone.

Without this treatment, I wouldn't be as healthy as I'm now.

Home sweet home, right?

Finally I have time to do things that I couldn't do in winter. I painted my sister's old spice-rack with the same pain that I use in the wall of my foyer. And it's good as new. Color isn't pink, it's brown, Savannah brown.

It was quite operation to put that thing in my kitchen wall. I sat on my worktop (in my kitchen), I pushed my feet against the wall and push the screw with my screwdriver and after that I screw it tight. The style isn't the point, best thing is that it's in my kitchen wall and I can use it.

Other operation was when I wash my windows. I live in 5 Th floor, that's about 20 meter's high from the ground. And my window is 2, 5 meter's wide, so I have to be creative. When I was washing the window, a man from the opposite building thought that I'm going to jump. I'm not suicidal and I won't jump. (I'm not that fan about "Desperate Housewives". And I'm more like Bree :))

And finally I have 90% of my books in the bookshelf. 10% is in the basement.

People usually tell me that they love books but when they see my books they are shocked. I have LOTS of books. I have those about 2000 and yes, i have read almost all of them. There are maybe 20 books that I haven't read.

And I found 4 chair's. that was hard. Because I know what kind of they has to be that they fit in my home. It has to be wooden chair. I don't like pink.

Only thing what is different from my wooden, brown style is the table where is my TV, videos and DVD-player. That has to be gray, more like the color is metal-gray.

Don't think that it took me only few weeks to build this up. No way.

But see for yourself. ( I apologize that I forget the kitchen towel in the picture, sorry. But it's my home)

Do you what really irritate me?

Men who has attitude like they know how I think, how I feel and they know better what is good for me?

Oh, I HATE that! So much!

Those kind of men are 99% religious (fanatic one's). I have met those kind of men a lot! Every man who is like that I have only one word to say: NO. And I told one of those NO, do you know what he told me? According to him I don't know what I want, I don't know how I feel, I don't know what is good for me?

One of those men told to me that I don't know what I want (wrong, I do.), according to him, I don't know how I feel (wrong, I know exactly how I feel) and according to him, he knows better what is good for me (that's the line what nobody cross. I know better than him.) But hey, he's a priest, not married. (Wonder why?)

Those kind of men don't make me feel safe and loved. They make me feel that I'm a prisoner and they don't respect me as a person and a woman (if you can say that) and they don't see me as a individual. They see me something they believe they can possess.

To all women: Do not take man like those. They are rare in other country's but in this country, we have them. I will never marry a man who has born in this country. Never. It makes me sick when men from this country looks at me.

If I can't find a person who I feel safe with and who respect me as a person and a woman (a woman who likes do science, man who things that it's normal.) Those kind of man who I told you about, they are going to be after me when my face is done.

But if I can find a man like I describe, I'm safe. Those kind of men don't come near me. They know that they can't never own me because I already has a "owner".

I thought that I find one like that but he hates me. Or not! I don't know. But I don't tell about him in here. He has right to be in shadows. But this I can tell you, when he's around, I'm left alone, in peace. He really is the only man, who don't make me feel nauseous.

HE woke up such feeling that I didn't know that I have those. In this day I thought that I can't feel anything that powerful. I was so wrong. You think that this is "just a talk". It isn't. Now I know that I can feel very powerful feelings. You might think that that those feelings makes me lunatic. No, they don't. It's kind of scary.

Stylistic fault in public defense of a doctoral dissertation

How come some people/student's don't know what is appropriate outfit in this kind of ceremony. Even I know. That person didn't acknowledge the professor which was our latest leader of our faculty. She didn't even understood that that ceremony wasn't about her.

It's so impolite and shows bad manners when some one is dressed up in white T-shirt and in black bra. Just one look at the mirror should tell the person that that isn't O.K.

Simple jacket suit with right shoes are just fine.

Well I knew that what to wear. Black jacket suit, black shoes with appropriate jewelry. And I knew that there are all the professors and Ph.D. teachers who will look every student how they dressed up.

Everything we has to see. How you can be believable in science when every one has seen that you don't respect these kind of things? You are not. So easy.

I showed with my outfit (too) that I respect the ceremony and it's people.

Hakunila the suburban

See for yourself.

Finnish wild nature

I can reveal to you that in those forests underbrushes are full of blueberry's. When you go there you don't know where to start.

Those flowers are in the meadow witch was in the clearing. It's like from the fairytale. I should start to write that, now I have pictures ready. Children's loves real pictures.

I love United States a.k.a. U.S.A

That's true and to some people that's horrible. Truth is that I love United States. Not because that's the biggest country witch make good movies, where we get our great apples, phones, games, computer's etc. No. I love that country because it's people.

Most of them are awesome. They have manners, moral, they know what is right and what is wrong, they believe in hard work and they see other people as person's. They don't make a difference between race, age, education, sex and they don't mind that do you have wealthy or poor background.

And I love American values. Those are the best of all.

Even they are friendly nation, they have their national proudness, in the positive way.

Of course they are people, person's with feelings.

Very rare of my friends don't know that I have been a member, now three years, of a American recipes club. We change recipes globally. I have got my best cooking recipes from them.

It's two days to the Independence day. People in there really celebrate that day in U.S. In here it's not even close of that. Then , in U.S. people get together, families, friends meet each other.

To learn more about quality of life and values the only way to achieve that is get known of them. They know the true meaning of friendship.

First Blueberry's are ready...

Can you believe? Blueberry's in this time of the year? In July?

You better believe it. I was in the forest yesterday and I got 3 liter's blueberry's. These was just the berry's with were "done". These were the first one's. But you can't use the rake when you pick up those berry's, you have to do that by hand. If you use the rake, you'll get lot of leafs and raw berry's.

Good news is that in this year there is going to be very much lingonberry's/cowberry's. Those berry's were raw now but after two weeks you can pick them too.